The Productivity Trap
These past few days, I've found myself slipping back into old habits - When Ambitious Rai was in control. This productivity agent in AbhinavLand took control, reducing everything to metrics. Even cycling, something I genuinely enjoy, became a numbers game. Doing it to get fit. (This is something I can see very clearly in my mom ~ genetic passdown).
All our lives, we're told to behave like machines - be more productive. Fix the system and somehow a part of me loves this journey more. It's a huge dopamine hit - structuring and measurable progress. But at what cost?
The Call for Intentionality
As I worked on Project Prime, I realized something was off. Yes, the project is thrilling, full of possibilities. But the constant drive to be productive, complete the checklist, move fast, restructure on notion & logseq, make the process on how I capture notes, jump to solutions while talking to my partner, eat junk to save time - this all is taking me away from being present, from enjoying the journey.
Am I in the moment? Am I enjoying the process? Am I being intentional in whatever I'm doing?
The power of awareness
The ambitious part and the productivity-driven part have been at odds with the parts that want to slow down, be present, and enjoy the journey. They felt being sent to exile like past.
The beautiful thing is, I'm aware of this conflict. I can recognize when the productivity agent is taking over, when the junk dopamine is kicking in. This awareness is a powerful tool.
I'm learning to tap into the flow, the energy of the universe (think of it like a river), without getting swept away. I want to take a dip, enjoy the flow, but also have my own space to return to.
Lessons for Myself:
The best productivity tool is an "inspired" you! Stop optimizing, start making. It's about a new spirit - one that puts creativity over productivity and embraces that there are no shortcuts.
Slow down. Make space for whatever comes up inside. Be mindful. Whether it's cutting vegetables or eating a meal, stay present. Enjoy the process. Don't let the destination overshadow the journey. Balance is key. Tap into the flow, but don't let it consume you.
Moving Forward
I'm excited about Project Prime, but I'm committed to approaching it with intentionality. I want to build something meaningful without losing sight of the present moment.
This is my next mountain to climb - living a more mindful life. Being aware all the time, questioning why I'm doing what I'm doing.
It's a journey, and I'm grateful for the friends who are part of it. Here's to finding that sweet spot between intentionality and productivity, to creating harmony in AbhinavLand.
Growth is continuous. We're all works in progress, learning and evolving every day. Let's embrace the journey, with all its ups and downs, and keep moving forward. 🌱
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