Money, Love, Freedom connection & the hippy CEO!

The Hippie CEO!

For the longest time, my CEO part ran AbhinavLand like a corporation. A Corporate consultant - always anxious, always pushing, focused on the next task, the next goal. All other parts would come to him for permissions with their requests.

"Can we take time to explore this creative idea?" "Should we prioritize rest today or push forward with the project?" "Han needs our attention - how much time can we allocate?"

And my Selfless CEO, wanting everyone to be happy, would try to please them all. He'd force compromises, create elaborate schedules, and attempt to merge opposing desires. He believed his job was to fit everything together, to make a perfect life where all parts could coexist in harmony.

But this was exhausting. The CEO was always working overtime, sacrificing his own peace to keep everyone else satisfied. He never got a break because the demands never stopped coming.

Recently, though, something beautiful has happened. My CEO is undergoing a transformation - from a corporate executive to a hippie facilitator.

Instead of seeing himself as the decision-maker, he's becoming a "messenger to self." When parts come to him with their needs or concerns, he no longer tries to solve their problems or create the perfect balance. Instead, he creates space for them to connect with my Self (the core consciousness at the center of AbhinavLand).

"It's like, okay, guys, come. Like, you know, we'll do a ceremony and we'll do a Havan to talk to self"

The whole essence of that is to pause and slow down and self will feel it!

I love this image - my CEO sitting cross-legged, perhaps with some incense burning, creating a sacred space where all parts can be heard without judgment. He's less concerned with fixing problems and more interested in facilitating authentic connection.

So, what enabled this transformation?

I did some math and realized we have enough saved for about two years of living expenses. This financial runway gave him permission to step back from constant vigilance.

"He feels like, 'I am on vacation, you know. I am taking a two-year break. It's like, I'm not worried. We have this corpus and then we have like some more and then we have emergencies.'"

This realization was liberating. The CEO didn't need to micromanage anymore. He could trust that we're safe, at least for now, and allow other parts to take the wheel more often. The creative part, especially, is thriving with this newfound freedom.

"The creative part of me is having so much fun these days, so fun, my god, like he's building his own world in whatsHappening and creative ideas"

Money, Freedom, and Love: The Core Pillars

This exploration led to a deeper understanding of how money connects to two fundamental aspects of my identity: freedom and love (which manifests as responsibility toward others).

Money, I realized, is like a bridge between these two core values:

1. Freedom: Money allows me to pursue my own path, to explore creatively, to live authentically without being bound by external constraints. It gives me choices.

2. Love/Responsibility: Money enables me to care for those I love, to ensure their needs are met, to be there for them when they need support.
   

Money - it facilitates life, making things possible that wouldn't be otherwise. It creates safety - both for myself and for those I care about.

"Money is somewhat relating to freedom here... if you have money you are free to do and it gives you some security."

The challenge comes when scarcity thinking emerges. When resources seem limited, my system defaults to prioritizing responsibility over freedom. The CEO turns off the creative projects and focuses on survival and caretaking. The freedom part gets pushed aside "just until we're more secure."

The Origin of My Slum King

This pattern has deep roots in my childhood experiences. Between the ages of 10-14, as the eldest son, I became my mother's confidant during difficult times. We were facing financial challenges, and I remember feeling helpless witnessing my mother's struggles.

I recall going into the bathroom corner, closing the door, and praying for things to improve. At just ten years old, I was already scanning newspaper job sections in school, thinking about how I could eventually help.

This is where my "Slum King" part was born - a part that took on tremendous responsibility at a young age. He believed that if he could sacrifice himself, work hard enough, and eventually make enough money, he could protect those he loved from pain.

The Slum King carried the belief that love must be earned through sacrifice and achievement. He gave me determination and resilience, pushing me toward success in technology, which eventually provided financial stability. But he also instilled a deep fear of scarcity - a fear that if money ran out, both freedom and the ability to care for loved ones would disappear. He has seen this scarcity - That's why he is "Slum King" and wants to protect me from that.

Honoring the Scarcity Part

My scarcity mindset isn't just a negative pattern to overcome - it's a part of me that deserves compassion and understanding.

"I think scarcity was a villain for like very long time in my life... but today was like, first time I feel very very sad & sorry for it."

This part wasn't trying to limit me; it was desperately trying to protect me from experiencing again the helplessness and fear I felt as a child. When it activates, it's saying, "I have seen what happens when there isn't enough. I won't let you go through that again."

The scarcity part isn't wrong to be concerned. It witnessed real struggles. But its solution - always prioritizing responsibility over freedom, always saving for worst-case scenarios, always being on high alert - comes at a cost to my present wellbeing and creativity.

The New Direction

Now I'm working on integration rather than elimination. The CEO is learning to honor all parts without letting any one part dominate. He's becoming a facilitator, creating space for authentic dialogue rather than forcing compromises.

The scarcity part is slowly being reassured that we don't need to operate from fear anymore. We have skills, resources, and support that weren't available to us as a child. We can honor responsibility while also embracing freedom.

When parts come with their urgent demands, the CEO no longer jumps to solve the problem. Instead, he pauses, creates space, and says, "Let's talk about what you're really feeling. Let's bring this to Self."

"I'll be that facilitator... Let's do a ceremony. Let's do some mystical elements... Everybody's in this circus now."

This new approach feels lighter, more playful, and more authentic. The CEO isn't carrying the weight of AbhinavLand on his shoulders anymore. He's simply creating the conditions where all parts can be heard and the wisdom of Self can emerge.

And the beautiful thing is, he's enjoying this new role. After years of overwork and stress, the CEO is finding joy in facilitating rather than controlling. He's on vacation, watching the other parts play and create, stepping in only when needed to ensure everyone gets a chance to connect with Self.

AbhinavLand is becoming a more balanced ecosystem - not because the CEO is forcing it to be, but because when all parts are heard and honored, natural harmony emerges.