My nows | 22 May

Updated: May 21

💥 Came to my Parent's hometown due to war! Peace amidst uncertainity

State of war was mine & Han's first every experience. From all the paranoia from news / twitter and Han's panic attack later, we decided to leave the country for Vietnam.
While I was waiting for my Visa at my parent's hometown - ceasefire happened and peace came back. The whole idea of leaving your home in just 36 hours is scary! I was too attached to my life, routine & house there but this was something I needed.
Parent's home was fun with huge family. A beautiful change. A blessing. And we remembered how fun just moving was from our travel days.
First 7 days at home were really great and it was with a beginning mind but some part of me is just not happy here! I would always get sick and I have flu while I'm writing this. Earlier it was just 1 day but it has moved to 7 days. I'll find out more about this feeling.
As of now, I really miss my home & freedom in Dharamshala and we're going back there in 2 days.

Vibe coding is fun! Understanding and building -> react native navigation, auth, core components, connection to supabase, using rails with supabase as backend, building local first, .... -> this is too much fun! Codebases (React native & rails) are fully set up and it is so fun adding more features.
Last 10 days haven't built anything as creative self was hijacked with war anxiety & doing & providing mode but so looking forward to completing the app in another 5 days. Probably the beta will be ready by end of May and launch in 2nd week of June. So excited for this.

Windsurf, claude code & claude is my AI stack and I'm having fun. Probably I even want to build something like shipfa.st but for react native explaining how to structure the app and getting it live in 3 weeks instead of 3 months with integration to stripe, supabase, auth, etc

took a long time to break the ice! whew!
added $56 MRR! Not much but happy that I cleared a 8 month old mind backlog.
I feel it is plateaued now with ~$200-250 MRR revenue & ~40% profit margin - it is not something I wanna hold onto now.

Few questions made:
- Q1: What is something you are doing currently that makes you feel really alive & present?
- Q2: What is that 1st thing that comes to your mine you are struggling with atm?
- Q3: What is your rich life?
- Q4: What creative outlets bring you fulfillment?
- ....
Quite some of them will be ready in some more time. Not rushing but any question I feel like wow - I write it down!

1st script I vibe coded to clean & de-duplicate data from 3 sources. Great to break inertia and feeling pretty happy about it.
got cold email software lifetime - ManyReach.com. Have a feeling a lot of things from providing service to selling data can be done in near future with this data that can give me passive revenue.

Dharamkot is an hour away from our home and we found a beautiful meditation center there. Such a gem - from their courses to library to serene forest and mountains all around.
The 3 day course really helped me understand Buddhism philosophy of always being in prime self and I had aha moments relating ego to parts in IFS.
I am very curious to understand the true nature of reality and I'm diving deep into it. Meditation & reading books are not fully happening yet but I can see them as one of the paths. No urge towards doing them

This feeling is surreal! Baby is responding to our voice and this is one of the purest feelings I have right now!
Though Han is in little discomfort with her belly growing but both of us are deeply loving it.

Getting a little hot but still quite manageable considering North India. Still happy with low fan and no AC as of now.
Our neighbour has a cow we got fresh milk supply now!
Last 3 months, we made this house our home - from getting carpets for room to quite some kitchen ceramics, new working chair and so many plants! (we got about ~20 strawberries recently)
Fasting for 2 days in a week with just 1 light meal in evening.
I am much better chef now! Systems are getting made. Copied a lot from my friends on how they manage their life. Like marinating chicken, having light breakfast, etc.
Expenses still on higher end and I feel that's the new ordinary now. Sometimes the scarcity comes. Had some deep talks with me and it is better now. Still way to go.